Best Friends Forever!

“As we grow up, we realize it becomes less important to have a ton of friends, and more important to have real ones.” 

        Friends are the greatest. They are who you spend some of you greatest memories, accomplishments, and failures with. Friends are there for you when you need a “pick me up.” In many instances, I have depended on my friends for comfort and support. i know I wouldn’t be where I am today, or even who I am today if it wasn’t for the great friends I have.

        I have lost some of my greatest friends my senior year, and it was heartbreaking and really difficult for me to go through. However, since coming to Eastern I have found the greatest friends that I could EVER ask for. They have given me more love and support than any of my other friends have. I tend to believe there is a reason as to why everything happens. I know I lost friends so I can gain even better ones with coming to Eastern.

        The support I receive from my friends is tremendous. There have been several instances since coming to college where I have felt pretty low about myself. From past experiences, I have learned to reach out when I feel that way. I was hesitant to do that at first since I didn’t have a close relationship with anyone at Eastern yet, but I am so thankful I did. I put myself out there and received so much comfort in return. I will forever be grateful for all God has given me since coming to Eastern.

       Throughout high school I would often say “I have no friends.” Looking back now, I was wrong. I did have friends, but they weren’t always the best ones and didn’t give me a great friendship. I often felt alone and that I was putting more effort into maintaining a friendship than they were. It was hurtful knowing I cared more about the friendship than they did, but I learned great lessons from it. I learned how to be a great friend to others. Also, I learned when enough is enough and when certain people are not benefiting me.

        My advice to you, if you are feeling alone, reach out to someone. Make friends and become part of a community. Even if it is just one or two friends, you will feel so much better. Having a support system from friends is the best feeling in the world. Once you find “your” group of people or friends, grab them tight and never let go.

Keep Calm & Cope On!

A Letter to the Girl Who Feels Worthless...

         Waking up and getting out of bed can be the hardest obstacle you face for the day. You wake up, look in the mirror, and you see a waste of space. You don’t see a girl who is “wonderfully and beautifully made.” Your existence feels just as important as the dirt on the bottom of your shoe. How are you supposed to go on with your day and be successful when you feel like everything you do is pointless? What do you do when you feel like your life has no purpose? You are just a number to add to the population on the ten year consensus. You wake up and hope that this will be the last day you feel this way or something really positive and exciting will happen to change your mind set, but then you wake up the next day feeling the same way. No matter what you do, no matter who you talk to, no matter how hard you try to “fake it until you make it” you can’t shake off this large, heavy coat that drags you down deeper every single day. Eventually, you feel exhausted and emotionally drained. You catch yourself in a blank stare at the floor when you should be taking notes and focusing on school so you can get those straight A’s to make your family proud. But you don’t get those straight A’s. Then BOOM. There it is. 

Worthless. 
Useless. 
Stupid. 
Underappreciated. 
Undervalued. 
Insignificant. 
YOU ARE NOTHING.

 It is just one big never ending circle. How do you escape? Can you escape?

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        Woah. BACK TO REALITY. That is not true. Even if you feel like that description is an accurate representation of your feelings, it is not true at all. None of it. Don’t let yourself believe those things. Once you believe them they become your daily thought process. I know because I have been waking up feeling this way lately. I’ve been working to try to fix the way I think, but it has been very difficult.  I’ve learned from some of the experiences I’ve been through with negative people in my life that the reason I feel worthless is because of them and their own insecurities. I have no reason to feel the way I do, other than the fact that other people have told me I’m worthless so many times that I have engraved it in my mind. Now I just need to reroute my mental process and change my cognitive thinking. I hope that if anyone reading this feels this way, you step back and look at your life. Look at your experiences and look at what you’ve accomplished. Compare the negatives to the positives and I promise you the positives will always come out on top. You might not believe me now, and it might be a hard concept to grasp, but I promise you it’s true. You ARE wonderfully and beautifully made. 

Keep Calm & Cope On!